I’ve been drinking water so much the past 3 days that my eyes are about to float into my brain! But wanna know the cool part? I’m actually THIRSTY again!

When you’ve gone so long without drinking anything, like I have, you tend to lose your sense of thirst. I would crave water once in a blue moon. Now though? There’s nothing better! I don’t want a soda or juice or tea. I just want water. And for the first time today, I got home and said, ‘man, I’m thirsty!’ It actually took me a few minutes to realize what that odd sensation was!  Dry tongue:  Check!  Dry throat:  Check!  Yep, I’m thirsty!

Ok, so this blog entry sucks.  I just happen to be very thrilled with this new development.  I’ve lost 3 pounds so far, undoubtedly all water weight.  Hey, whatever.  I lost half an inch around my neck!  Water is my frienemy!  Eventually, I’m sure I’ll hit a stumbling block, but honestly, I’ve never been SO determined before.  When I get down, I just think about that baby.  My ultimate motivation.

I’ve always said that I don’t bond with my pregnancies.  After my first miscarriage, I just guard myself that way, I guess.  If I lose the baby, well, I wasn’t *that* attached to it anyhow, kwim?  Sounds really sad and like I don’t care but it’s just a survival tactic.  I’ve always said that pregnancy was weird, and it is.  The baby squirming around in there causing every weird sound imaginable to come out of your body at one time…  Yeah…  It’s weird.  I think I’ve out-grossed my husband a few too many times while pregnant.  It’s a wonder he wants to practice making babies with me anymore.  But, here I am…  Counting down the days and pounds until I can feel that weird sensation…  Wondering if it’s the baby kicking…  Wondering if my contractions are 5 minutes apart yet…

I think I might want to go with a midwife this time.  I’m not exactly sure how that would work out because, even though I’m a pretty crunchy/organic mom, I still love my epidural.  Can a midwife do epidurals?  Can I drag my midwife to the hospital with me?  I have pretty easy labors and deliveries as long as I have my pain meds going.  I don’t know what would happen if I went totally natural.  It might….get ugly.

Well, the hubs is on his way home so I had better stop writing and go make him some dinner.