I hate this.  I’ve been charting for over 7 years.  Ok, so I took a break after our youngest was born, but still…  I wake up at the same time every day.  I faithfully take my temp the second I wake up.  I come out, chart it and then I go check out what’s going on up my hoo-hoo.  I know I’m not a good sleeper.  I’m an insomniac and I’ve made peace with that.  I’m at the point where I’m going to gobble some pills just so I can get a real night’s sleep and an accurate temp!  I know that’s not healthy but neither is not sleeping…  Which is worse?

My chart is a lying dog.

I am not any days past ovulation. Liar of a chart! You beastly thing!

You would think that I could identify any sort of ovulation by looking at my chart.  I just can’t though!  The 4 days that my chart picked up on as my O date are based on adjusted temps.  I don’t trust those temps because my mid-day temps aren’t actually that different from my very-first-thing-I-do-in-the-morning temps.  My CM is drying up.  My CP is firming up again and closing…  Some might say my temp today is implantation, but it’s soooo not.  I slept like crap last night and I never got into a good sleep.  I woke up when The Hubs went to work (2 hours after I finally fell asleep) and didn’t go back to sleep for another hour.  Then I slept maybe 45 minutes…  You need at least 3 hours of uninterrupted sleep to get an accurate temp.  I don’t know what the crap is going on here.  I’m tired of it though.  I’m about to call this cycle over and just start over when AF shows up.

Forgot to add that I’m not pregnant.  However, here’s to trying for next month!  If you’re one of those weirdos who likes to follow people who are TTC and if you lurk charts, I’m your girl.

So, since I’m pretty much done with the weight-loss aspect of this blog (my purpose for starting this blog was weight-loss SO I could TTC.  I’m still dieting but I’m only losing as much as I can before I get pg and I’ll just have to be happy with whatever that number is on the scale), here’s some info about me and my cycles.

I tend to have long cycles at around 35 days.  I have a short-ish luteal phase (11 days).  I was diagnosed with PCOS after my first miscarriage but I don’t claim the title as I’ve carried 2 babies to term and I do ovulate each month.  I got pg on our first try with both of our kids, who were obviously planned.  I charted and temped my cycles with both kids.

With this baby, whenever I do get pg (tell me if you get tired of hearing that line), I’m using a midwife.  I was induced with both of my babies and although it was ok at the time, I really really want the ‘OMG, IS THIS IT?’ experience that I feel I was cheated out of.  OK, yeah, so I had pregnancy-induced-hypertension with baby #1 and it had to be done, but still…  Pop my bag and send me home or something!  I’m not going natural, but I’m definitely going ‘more’ natural.  I gotta have my epidural.

OK, here’s a confession for ya.  I’m a hippie.  It’s true.  I use an alternative to toothpaste, I have often been known to use a shampoo bar instead of commercialized shampoo and I’m forever getting blasted for not vaccinating my kids.  If you take issue, save it.  I’ve heard all of the opinions on it.  Grow your own kids and do what you want with them.  When baby 3 is made (I changed it up for you), I’ll be using cloth diapers again, making my own babyfood, still not vaccinating and using cloth wipies instead of disposable.  I was that lady who said she was going to make her own babyfood while pregnant but actually did it after the baby was born.  I’m generally pretty proud of myself for this!  I’ll talk about it often!

One great advancement in cloth diapers that I’m looking forward to is the ONE SIZE diapers!  They go from tiny newborn size to giant toddler size!  They didn’t have those when mine were little so I spent a FORTUNE on diaper covers!  I’m excited to see how that all works out!  I figure if we buy 1 diaper/week during this pregnancy, we’ll be set for quite a while!  I’m excited!  I think looking through all the cloth diapers on Etsy is what helped me totally make my mind up as to whether we should TTC or not.  That’s probably pretty shallow sounding but I SO don’t care.  I’m in a selfish frame-of-mind right now.  I spend a lot of time worrying over family and friends and sometimes I just need to take some time out to take care of myself.  I’m not much of a ‘me-time’ kinda mom but it is necessary sometimes.