…I find myself, at nearly 30, wanting to stick my head out the front door and cackle at them while I say, ‘SUCKERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I DON’T HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!  BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!’  I don’t actually do it, but I’ve always thought it would be funny…  Only to me and it would stop being funny when I either got an angry Mom on my front porch or the cops.

As happy as I am, still, to be out of school, I then realize that I’m going to be spending most of my adult life educating my own kids.  LOL  I’m fine with that, actually.  It’s just funny to me for some reason.  I hated school.  It was the most miserable place on earth and I’m still disturbed by some of the things I can recall from it.

OK, so anyway, on the TTC front…  I’m currently waiting to test.  I finally ovulated after my stressful week and now comes the blissful and boring wait.  I don’t have a testing day in mind, really.  I’m just going to give it a while.  I know that we timed ‘the deed’ really badly.  We were both tired and didn’t want to do it that last night.  It was stressful trying to figure out my chart.

AF is actually due today but seeing as I only ovulated 4 days ago, she’s nowhere to be found.  I’ve been reading about other ladies today who are getting their BFP’s when they had timed BDing really badly, too so that’s giving me some hope.  At least I don’t have to worry about her for a little while.

It’s 8:52 and I’ve been up for a while.  The nicest thing to see in the morning is the sun rising right in front of you and then seeing all of the spider webs shimmering in the dew and sun.  Man, it’s a nice day!  I can’t wait for it to cool off some more.

OK, I have to get off of here and get the school table cleared off and I have to make some copies.  My nephew is joining us for school this morning so I need to get going. 

I hate this.  I’ve been charting for over 7 years.  Ok, so I took a break after our youngest was born, but still…  I wake up at the same time every day.  I faithfully take my temp the second I wake up.  I come out, chart it and then I go check out what’s going on up my hoo-hoo.  I know I’m not a good sleeper.  I’m an insomniac and I’ve made peace with that.  I’m at the point where I’m going to gobble some pills just so I can get a real night’s sleep and an accurate temp!  I know that’s not healthy but neither is not sleeping…  Which is worse?

My chart is a lying dog.

I am not any days past ovulation. Liar of a chart! You beastly thing!

You would think that I could identify any sort of ovulation by looking at my chart.  I just can’t though!  The 4 days that my chart picked up on as my O date are based on adjusted temps.  I don’t trust those temps because my mid-day temps aren’t actually that different from my very-first-thing-I-do-in-the-morning temps.  My CM is drying up.  My CP is firming up again and closing…  Some might say my temp today is implantation, but it’s soooo not.  I slept like crap last night and I never got into a good sleep.  I woke up when The Hubs went to work (2 hours after I finally fell asleep) and didn’t go back to sleep for another hour.  Then I slept maybe 45 minutes…  You need at least 3 hours of uninterrupted sleep to get an accurate temp.  I don’t know what the crap is going on here.  I’m tired of it though.  I’m about to call this cycle over and just start over when AF shows up.

This is a NEARLY positive OPK (ovulation predictor).

Very nearly a positive OPK

I am ALMOST ovulating.  Apparently, the line on the left, the test line, has to be as dark, or darker than the right line, the control line.  So, I’m pretty much sittin’ pretty.  I have to BD (baby dance) tonight and tomorrow night.  Probably the night after that.  Seriously, I’m already tired of having to do it.  Since I’m ovulating, I get the most horrible pains and it’s a horrible experience having to do-the-deed so much.  I think that the ovulation pains are my own form of birth-control.  I want nothing to do with THAT when I’m in so much pain.  So, I’ll just have to suffer through.  HOWEVER, I’m so totally thrilled!  I usually ovulate on CD (cycle day) 21 or 24.  Then I have to wait about 11-12 days to see if AF (aunt flo…seriously, I’ll learn you these terms, fast) shows up.  It’s torture.  The average cycle is 28 days.  Mine is usually 35+.  The fact that I’m on CD 14 and I’m actually going to ovulate at a decent time is CRAZY good!  I’m very, very happy with this.  I just need to get The Hubs home and get going!    wink, wink

Anyway, that’s my update.  It’s not exciting to anyone else but me, but that’s ok.  I just feel the need to write it down sometimes.