I recently read someone’s blog entry where she was complaining about all sorts of things.  The one thing that got on my nerves was the bashing of women who announce their pregnancies before the first tri is over.  She went on to say that if those women had any sense, they would realize that, statistically speaking, they would have to send out that sad announcement due to the rate of miscarriage.  It was a particularly nasty venting over these women.  Well, I have lost my own pregnancies.  My first one was particularly late at 13 weeks.  I heard the heartbeat on the doppler in the ER 10 minutes before my pelvic exam to ‘remove the tissues’.  I’ve been through my own pain and heartache.  I had to see my little bean in an ultrasound and then say goodbye nearly in the same sentence and no, it doesn’t get easier with time.  I have complete sympathy for anyone who loses their baby.  It’s hard no matter how young the pregnancy is.  That’s your child.  Your hope.  Your future.  Having to say goodbye is the worst thing I had to do.  The unanswered questions about ‘what the hell just happened there???’ never go away!  I still want to know why they couldn’t tell me the sex even though the baby was complete in an un-ruptured sac!  How is it possible that we heard the heartbeat but was told the pregnancy was over minutes later?  How???  WHY???  We don’t know and never will…  The thing about it is that I’m not bitter about it.  I’m mad that my doctor was a douche and was more worried over getting sued than answering my questions, but I’m not bitter.  I’ve carried 2 healthy babies to term.  I know that my body works…  So this is what leads me to my anger over this woman’s comments…

I AM that woman who makes the early announcement.  I have BEEN through that hell and ya know what?  I know the damn statistics!  When I announce my pregnancy that is days old (when it happens), it’s because I desperately need prayers BECAUSE I’ve been through the losses!  If I held it in until the second tri, I would worry and panic the whole time and prayer is the oil that keeps this engine from seizing!  I need all the prayers I can get!

So, I’m mad for the ignorance that some people choose to project.  It’s sad that some bitter hag out there will look down on me for successfully getting pregnant and letting my friends know.  Sue me.