Same as the last one with a couple of new ones.

1. Cramping
2. Dizziness
3. I’m currently crying at every.single.thing.

I’m a nutcase, I do know that, but this is just killer having to wait it out.

I’ve decided that if I’m not knocked up this time, we’re definitely trying next time. Now that I’ve thought about it and felt that joy at the possibility of another baby, I’m wondering why on earth did I think it would be smarter to lose weight, get pregnant and then lose the weight AGAIN! What I should do is have a kid and use the wonderful, magical beauty of breastfeeding to help boost my weight loss! I’ve done it before, I can do it again! And really? My life isn’t that complicated. I have a husband who would bend over backwards for me so I know that back-rubs and general kindness is in my future. If I hurt, he’ll try to fix me. Why was I so worried about this? I’ll be OK! I’m in good health besides a few bits of arthritis here and there. I mean, good grief, that crap gets worse as you get older! So if I wait, I’ll be older and trying to be pregnant. That’s not a great plan! Plus, it’s only 9 months. It’s not that long. I’ll live.

I feel exuberant about this plan, I really do. I’m hopeful that I’m pregnant right now and everything but if not, this new plan definitely works for me! The Hubs is ecstatic about it.

And, yes, I actually have been looking at all the cloth diapering stuff and maternity clothes and I’ve been making tickers that I’ll hopefully be able to use. My brain is completely focused on baby. I’ve put my body under the microscope, for sure. Things are going on that usually don’t unless I’m pregnant so am I an emotional wreck because I’m so excited or because I’m pg? Who knows. Either way, pregnancy is in my future whether it’s now, a month from now or a year. I have a healthy attitude this time. That’s the best start!

And guess what! I found a midwife group that’s connected to the hospital and I CAN get an epidural with this group! I’m that hippie lady who wants to go natural but is a GIANT wuss. I’m THRILLED over this!