Confession time.  When I was pregnant with my youngest baby, I was fat, swollen and miserable.  I was sitting at my OB’s office waiting to be called in when this stunningly tall, thin and very pregnant woman came strolling in.  She seemed to be lighter than air even though she must have been full-term.  She wore this blouse that was cut on the bias and I believe it was silk…  She was one of those free-spirit types with long and flowing hair, sun-kissed…  Like natural sun, not tanning bed-tanned.  She was amazing.  She giggled with her husband, no doubt excited about all of the baby things they were looking at in the magazines that surrounded them.  I envied her so much.  I was at the point where I just wanted to get it over and done with.  I was so uncomfortable while pregnant.  My body ached, my ankles were so swollen and I just wanted to get the kid out of there.  I wanted to be care free at the end of my pregnancy.  I could barely muster the energy, let alone the honest emotion, to smile!!!  This woman was giggling, whispering, cuddling…   Ugh…  I’ve thought about her so much because I recognized myself in her.  I used to be that free-spirit with the long hair, the giant bracelets around my wrists, thin woman who could pull off a bias-cut silk blouse…  I was the fat version of her.  She’s been my motivation, believe it or not.  I do realize that she was about to go get on that table and get clinically felt up just like I was, but still, that image of her in my head just makes me want to reach my goal faster!  I know that I’ll never be *as* thin as she was, as thin as *I* once was, but I can get closer to that person that I used to know.  I can’t believe how skinny I used to be and how much I hated my body.  I must have been insane.  So, maybe not 120, but definitely not 238, either.  YIKES.

So, thank you, skinny pregnant lady from 4 years ago!  It’s definitely weird that I’m thinking about you, but whatever.  You’ll never see this so I’m good.  I hope your baby didn’t look like Walter Mathau, cause your husband kind of did.  Anywayyyyyyyyy……